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Broken

WHY IS LIFE SO FREAKING HARD??? Why does it have to be so confusing??? Why does it have to hurt so much??? I'M GOING TO SCREAM!!! I just want things to work out! I just want to be happy! IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK????
I'm so freaking tired of being let down. Sometimes it doesn't seem worth it. Why do I even try? I spend years putting my whole heart and soul into something only to have it fizzle out and die. WHAT'S THE POINT??? Why do my dreams always go up in flames??? WHY CAN'T I SUCCEED??? 

That's it. I'm done. I'm done trying. I can't handle the headache. It's just too much.
I'm going to simplify my life and remove anything that is not necessary for survival. If I don't I'm afraid that I might literally lose my mind.
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